First you have to ask yourself "What do I want?"

Who the hell thought that would be such a hard question. I don't do ambitious well, never have. Is this a character flaw? Or a character trait? I'm reasonably at peace with it, but quite often people around me don't seem to be. And so I question my motivation. Or lack thereof. And when I do try to cultivate ambition, everything else around my life seems to suffer. Making me think - is this worth it? What do I want? A simple, peaceful, happy life with steady, good gigs.